Chapter 564 Kill Me
“That’s enough. I know already. You don’t need to remind me!” Shen Qianan could not help but yell, “Fu Sijue, you don’t have to remind me time and time again of what I can’t bear. Yes, I loved Fu Chengyan before, but that’s all in the past. I have nothing to do with him anymore. He’s my sister’s husband. Please stop using this to speculate about others.”
She looked at Fu Sijue as if she was about to break down. “I don’t want to see you. Get out!”
Shen Qianan thought that she had gone too far with her words and had provoked him. She waited for him to slam the door and leave, but he did not move even after a long time. When he did not budge, Shen Qianan could not help but look at him suspiciously, but she saw that his originally dim eyes were now filled with light.
There was a smile at the corners of his mouth. He inexplicably calmed down when he heard her tirade. His eyes were filled with a warm smile that gave off a completely different emotion from his mask.
Shen Qianan could not understand what was going on with him, but she was relieved to see that he was not angry.
Fu Sijue let her go and picked up the bowl and chopsticks again, holding them toward her. “You must be hungry. You haven’t eaten anything since you woke up. Come on, I’ll feed you!”
She turned her head away. However, the moment she did, his smiling eyes suddenly became cold again. He narrowed his eyes at her. “Eat!”
The chopsticks were brought to Shen Qianan, but she merely frowned at him. Although she was stubborn, he seemed to be more stubborn than her, and the two of them got locked in a stalemate. Thus, she finally had no choice but to open her mouth and swallow the food in one bite.
When she swallowed the food, Fu Sijue’s cold eyes became normal again.
Shen Qianan really did not know what he was thinking. She only knew that if she did not finish eating quickly, he might look at her with those eyes again. Thus, while he fed her, she lowered her head and ate quickly, sometimes not even chewing before she swallowed.
“Eat slowly. No one will fight you for the food.” Fu Sijue’s voice was incredibly gentle, but Shen Qianan only felt scared. Fu Sijue is too terrible. He’s even more terrible than he was four years ago.
After the bowl of rice was finished, he originally wanted to feed her more, but she pushed him away. “I’m not hungry anymore. I don’t want to eat.”
When he heard this, he looked at Shen Qianan for a long time before finally looking away and nodding. “All right. Remember to tell me if you’re hungry. Don’t say you’re not hungry, okay?” He reached out and rubbed the corner of her mouth with his thumb slightly roughly, wiping away the rice grain that was stuck there.
Then, he brought his thumb to his mouth and swallowed the grain of rice.
Shen Qianan only felt uncomfortable looking at his actions, but she did not reveal her displeasure.
When he saw this, he leaned down and pressed his forehead against hers. “How nice would it be if you were always this obedient.”
Shen Qianan froze at those words. “Then, you should go find an obedient person, not me!’
The originally pleasant atmosphere was broken by her sentence. His eyes turned icy the next moment.
He stood up and looked at her coldly. “It’s impossible for you to leave. Instead of thinking about escaping, you should think about where you want to go with me after I’m done here.”
Fu Sijue opened the door and was just about to go out, but Shen Qianan suddenly called out to him.
She got out of bed and stood barefoot a few meters behind him. Her gaze burned into him. “If, and I mean if, I’m willing to go with you, will you drop everything here and take Yu and me away?”
She clenched her fists when she said that. Even she did not know why she asked that question. She merely looked at his back. He did not turn around and continued standing with his back to her.
Shen Qianan could not see the expression on his face, but she could feel the truest reaction from his limbs.
One of his hands was still holding the door handle, and his entire body stiffened when he heard her words. It was as if he had not expected her to ask this question.
Shen Qianan’s gaze remained fixed on Fu Sijue. Neither of them moved. There was only a short distance between them, but it was as if they were separated by the seas and mountains.
Shen Qianan did not know what he was thinking, but she could feel his mood.
After an unknown amount of time, she felt the coolness from the soles of her feet seemed to have invaded her limbs and bones, causing her hands and feet to stiffen. However, she was unwilling to move. Shen Qianan simply continued to look at him, waiting for his answer.
The room was very quiet. There was only the rustling sound of leaves that came from outside the window occasionally.
Shen Qianan’s eyes glimmered with tears. His refusing to give me an answer is already an answer in and of itself. Hah! I overestimated myself.
She withdrew her gaze, and the corners of her lips pulled. “Just go.”
Fu Sijue’s face under the mask softened for a moment, but in the end, he squeezed the door handle. His originally dazed eyes turned cold. “You should know that even meeting you back then was just a part of my plan. Don’t delude yourself, Qian!”
“But you said it yourself. I can have anything I want!” Shen Qianan refused to give up.
Fu Sijue’s eyes were fiercely stunned. “This isn’t included in that ‘anything’!” He rejected her in the end.
She did not feel pain either. Maybe it was because she already knew the answer. However, Shen Qianan had always been like this. She would persevere until she reached her goal. That was true when she faced Fu Chengyan, and even more so when facing Fu Sijue.
“I’ve never wanted to change you, nor am I able to, but there are some things that I just can’t accept!” Shen Qianan smiled wryly and hung her head. She clearly was not crying, but the salty liquid slipped from the corner of her eye, landed on her cheek, and then flowed to the corner of her mouth.
She stubbornly wiped the tears from her cheeks. When she looked up, she saw that Fu Sijue had turned around and was looking at her in consternation. There seemed to be a hint of guilt in his eyes.
Shen Qianan suddenly felt amused. In fact, she actually laughed.
I really am delusional. How could someone as cold-hearted as Fu Sijue change because of me? That’s impossible.
She pursed her lips and looked at him with a smile. “Since there’s nothing I can do to change your mind, let me ask you a question.”
Fu Sijue wrinkled his brows. “What is it?”
“Who exactly are you? Fu Sijue? Or Yun Jing?”
Fu Sijue’s stern eyes fell on Shen Qianan. “Everyone who knows me is dead.”
“Then, just tell me. I’m going to die soon, anyway.” She chuckled. “It makes no difference whether I die sooner or later. Rather than dying from the pain of the virus, it’d be better to die from your hands instead!”
Fu Sijue frowned. “Qian, don’t force me.”
His hands were tightly clenched. Anyone who knew him knew that it was because he was trying his best to hold back.
However, Shen Qianan merely looked at him with a smile, not stopping at all. Her eyes flickered in laughter and loneliness, and she looked Fu Sijue straight in the eye as she stepped forward.
Her hands trembled when she raised them, but she did not stop.
Fu Sijue stared at her intensely. The moment she reached out, he suddenly grabbed her hand. “When everything is over, I’ll show you.”
However, Shen Qianan shook her head. “Just kill me after I see. No one will know your secret. If you don’t let me see, you know that even if I can’t escape, I’ll try to escape anyway. Not even I know how far I’m willing to go to achieve that.”
She was forcing him, pushing him step by step.
Fu Sijue clearly knew this. Even if he did not agree, she could not do anything about it. He could only watch as she looked at him with the eyes of a dead man. At that moment, he hesitated.
His hands that held Shen Qianan’s loosened slightly. At the moment that Fu Sijue let his guard down, she raised her hand and quickly lifted his mask.
Perhaps it was because she used too much force, but the mask scraped violently on his face. He winced in pain as a bloodstain was scratched across his face.
Shen Qianan saw this and looked up at his face, but she froze at the moment she saw his face.
Her hand holding the mask tightened, and then she burst out laughing. “Fu Sijue. Yun Jing.”
As soon as she let go, the mask fell to the ground with a crisp clatter. Shen Qianan stood unmoving in front of Fu Sijue, raising her trembling hand to gently caress his face.
It’s a face that’s in no way inferior to Fu Chengyan’s. When I look closely, their eyes are actually extremely similar. This was why I was captured by Fu Sijiu four years ago. This was why it was that familiar face that popped into my head the moment I saw his mask.
Shen Qianan’s hand touched Fu Sijue’s face. He did not move and simply watched her. He watched as her laughs finally turned into tears streaming down her face.
She suddenly raised her hand and gave him a tight slap. She used so much force that her hand tingled, but she still could not suppress the trembling in her heart. “Fu Sijue, now that I know who you are, kill me!”
A trace of pain flashed in Fu Sijue’s eyes as he reached out to grab her hand. “Qian!”
However, Shen Qianan grabbed his hand with her other and forced him to choke her neck. She looked at him with fierce determination in her eyes. “Didn’t you say everyone who saw your face is dead? Kill me!”
